Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Book excitement, frustration and panic....and the return of LOST!

There's only one thing on my mind this morning...okay...two things actually.  My book release and one of my favorite tv shows, LOST. 

Quite the combo I know...trust me, they don't have that much in common.  I cannot even begin to fathom how the writer's for that show do it.  Seriously with the twists and time travel...I'm always torn between being frustrated by the show because I can't figure it out and intrigued for the very same reason.  My LOST theory changes weekly as the season continues.  There have also been episodes in which I was so confused I didn't even have a theory.  So anyone else out there a LOST fan?  I hope so because I'm sure I will feel the need to blog about it as I watch.  Not sure I can help myself really.

As for The Wolf Within release, well, for those of you that don't know, this is my first published book and I'm kind of learning how the whole publishing thing works as I go.  For this book I queried a few agents and independent publishing houses and after a few rejections here and there I ended up going with an independent publishing house.  What does this mean for you as an author?  You get to do alot of your own work and freak out even more than usual.  YAY!  (that was sarcasm).  On a side note...I received what was quite possibly the nicest rejection letter EVER for a publishing house the other day and have been meaning to share it with you all...maybe I'll remember tomorrow.  If there can be such a thing as a good rejection, I think this was it.

But back to the present situation.  I have to admit...the entire process has been more than exciting and I can't wait to see my book in print!  However yesterday was one of those "roller coaster" days that I remember Elana talking about in another post.  Sidenote:  If you haven't read her post yet you should probably do so now and this would make a bit more sense.  So after being on the "duration" for a while, sitting and waiting from word on what I should do next, I get an email from my publisher yesterday after lunch.  Instant excitement!  I see his name pop up and I know he has information for me that I've been trying to be patient about for soooo long.  Nervously, I open it and I'm right!  He has sent me my first ever "Book Block" to read and edit.

Woo hoo!  I am so thrilled by this PDF gift he has sent me.  My work now looks like an actual book that I can almost not sit still.  Actually I didn't sit still.  I ran around the office finding the few friends there that know I write to share the news.  They probably think I'm insane at this point but that's not where I'm going with this.  I'm so distracted.  I have to take a peek.  I open the PDF...and for those of you that don't know what a "book block" is...it's basically your book as it will look when printed.  It has everything in it that will be the guts of your published book...everything but the cover.  So, there's the titlepage with the cool font they chose that I love.  I'm even more excited at this point.  Literally bobbing in my seat with happiness.  The next page has my very first ISBN number along with copyright information.  Wow.  At this point I am so fired up and happy I seriously debate leaving work for the day to bask in this glory.  Knowing I have too much work to do and that's realistically not possible I email a few friends and decide to put it out of my mind until I get home.

I print out the PDF version of my book, now formatted to have page numbers, headers, chapters that start at the top of the appropriate page.  So with pencil in hand, I begin the process of reading and editing....AGAIN.  This is when the nervousness and frustration sets in.  I have read this story and edited it so much that the moment I'm through page four I want to shoot myself.  I can't concentrate.  I'm never going to catch my errors if I can't concentrate.  This leads to panic.  Crazy panic that my book will come out with hideous errors I had a chance of catching and missed.  And we've all seen them.  Even if I was in the best error catching mood chances are I would miss some.  But right now I'm distracted and there's no way I can look at it.  I'm utterly disappointed with myself.  So on the roller coaster ride goes.

Have you ever written something and reread and edited it so many times you had no idea if you even liked it anymore?  I do this all of the time.  I did it for the piece I wrote for my critique groups this week as well.  The more I edit and look at something the less constructive I seem to be able to be.  So...today I'm stepping back and taking a break.

I will watch LOST tonight, relax and attempt round two of editing tonight when hopefully the appropriate mental state has returned.  Perhaps too soon but what can I say...I need to do it.  My release date is around the corner.

And for the record, Lee, if you're reading...I totally think all of this also qualifies as a juggling post.  Don't you think?  Juggling a full time job/writing/reading/blogging...I think most of us are honestly magicians at this point.  As for real juggling, I'm horrible at it.  Honestly horrible.  But as I mentioned before, I totally rock the Wii juggling.  Fake balls stick to my hands much easier than the real ones.  And are you a fellow NC'ian?

Okay, it's that time...I have to run for now...after the hectic day I had yesterday with my manuscript I stayed up way too late reading other friend's works (they rocked) along with Beautiful Creatures.  I'm almost to the point I want to stop reading BC just because I know it's almost over.  And I don't want it to be over.  *Sadface*          

So I'll leave you all with this fun little nugget.  Enjoy!


  1. Ok, I heard about the WII juggling thing. I'll have to check that out-- sounds pretty bizarre. I'm not from NC, just worked for a company in Charlotte and have spent a lot of time there as well as having traveled a lot through NC-- lovely state.
    Oh, and yes, the daily juggling act is juggling, but of a different sort.

  2. Congrats on the book block (and thank you for explaining what it was). How exciting!
    I hear Lost is so good, but never started watching it. One day I'll have to watch the DVD sets!
    I'm watching the final season of Nip/Tuck, it's wickedly insane!

  3. I never got into LOST so I'm going to wait until it's all over, avoid rabid fans who want to talk about the plot, and then watch it on DVD.

    I know what you mean about editing a book until you're not sure if you like it any more. I have three books finished in a series and I've worked on the first one so much I'm tired of it!

    Good luck with the release and all the work you'll be doing promoting it!

  4. This post was both exciting and exhausting. I think I will celebrate for you and then pray for a nap! Ha ha ha. :-)

  5. Lost is the best show ever!!!! I can't wait to see where they go with the final season. I think I'll be the one lost when it ends.

    Yay, your book release date is getting close. I know how you feel about over editing. That's why I love my betas, through them I have fresh eyes.

    Take a break, watch lost, and try to remember why you love your book!

  6. Holy cow, I can't even imagine seeing my book in that kind of format! Congrats!!!

    And I've never seen LOST. So I'm totally missing something, then?

  7. I'm so freakin' excited for LOST (and Sawyer...maybe he'll have his shirt off ...yum). As you can see, I can barely contain myself. ; )

    It's getting closer to that release date. I'm so excited for you!!!

  8. I enjoy sharing in your book excitement! It invigorates me to work harder on my own WIP.

    As for LOST....it RULES! Been there from day one and have never missed an episode. I'm hoping beyond hope that the fulfill all the promises that have were camouflaged as questions. Less than two hours now!!

  9. Lost was awesome tonight! Except it drove me nuts because it answered nothing!!!!

    Anyway, I have an award for you.

  10. Lee - Aww...thought I had another NC peep but I guess I won't hold it against you!

    Kelly - Thanks! Lost is definitely addicting...I went through the entire first season on DVD in about a week! I've been loving it ever since. I need to check out Nip/Tuck!

    Jen - Totally understand...as one of those crazy rabid fans I can see how annoying it is...we can't help ourselves!

    Shannon - HA! It was long wasn't it? My day in a nutshell. Umm...just a really lenthy rambling nutshell. :-)

    Eva - SO GLAD you are a fellow addict! I'm almost loving my book again...almost! The break was much needed!

  11. Elana - Thanks so much! And yes, you are definitely missing something! Although it's just one more thing to distract from writing so it might be a good thing!

    Kim - am I alone in thinking Sawyer had on way TOO many clothes throughout that first episode? I mean...seriously!

    DL - Thanks for sharing in my excitement! I love the fact that blogging gives me that space to connect with other writers so we can all support each other!!! It motivates me too all the time. (Umm...and also distracts a little but I consider it healthy distraction)

    Eva - an award? Yippee! I'm going to pop on over and take a look now! Weeeee!